Piece By Piece I Found My Peace

We all have a vision. A hope. A dream. A picture perfect idea of everything we hope our person we will someday get to love to be.

Piece by piece we pray and ask The Lord, “will you bring this for me?”


I began journaling prayers for the man I’d someday marry in aspiration to gift it to him on our wedding day. They were dated, timed, intricately thought out, and faithfully prayed over.

I’ve grown to witness that the power prayer holds is something so incomparable and intimate. I undoubtedly believed if God already has and would continue to move massive mountains in my life, then he could and would explicitly create this man I dreamed of — just for me.

10.5.19 I came home from work only to find my husky got a hold of my journal and devoured it to shreds — completely disseminated my heart felt prayers all over the floor beneath me.

Initially, my heart sank because of the weight I placed in this journal, this dream, I had promised to gift one day. Now it was gone.

But piece by piece The Lord began to convict me.

What appeared to be a destroyed dream before me, ended up cultivating a new beautiful perspective.

No matter how specific I pray or how intricately I ask The Lord for my list of desired characteristics and qualities, no man will be perfect — just as I am far from perfect and in need of just as much grace.

These tattered torn pieces in front of me began to speak life as The Lord graciously reminded me of truth.As I started picking up the pieces, I realized the parts of the pages that were not destroyed were character traits and scriptures — everything else in the middle was gone.

It was in this moment I was convicted that The Lord spared the most important pieces after all, and God, as my foundation, would fill in the rest.

He will possess Godly traits, but still remain an imperfect human who will need unconditional love and grace. He may not be everything I’m wanting or longing to see, but this man will be exactly who God created him to be.

Piece by piece The Lord restored me with a newfound peace. A peace in knowing His perfect time and perfect way will pave the path to the man I will get to sacrificially love, extend grace, and serve The Kingdom with someday.

“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

Rock Bottom. The Brunt of Brokenness.

When you hear the phrase “hit rock bottom” it’s fair to assume the context is one of negative connotation.

Darkness. The lowest point. Excruciatingly painful. The end.

In dealing with family, friends, or relationships where a loved one has strayed into a prodigal, it’s incredibly common you hear,

“they’ll have to hit rock bottom at some point”

But why?

It’s a hopeful cry of desperation that they’ll come back around. Come back around as the old self they once were, or a completely new self – exceedingly better than before.

Maybe at one point you were, or currently are, that prodigal.

Is it not in our moments of desperation, where we literally have no deeper to fall, that we finally look up and cry out to Jesus that we need him, “now more than ever”? When you’re in a moment, or season, of hitting rock bottom it’s so easy to feel defeated.

There’s no hope.
No reason to carry on.
You’ve finally messed up too much this time.
There’s no way you can possibly redeem yourself.
You’re unforgivable.
You’re not worthy.
You’re completely alone.

What I find so fascinating about the term “rock bottom” is specifically the word, rock .

Think about it – who is our ultimate rock? Jesus.

It’s not surprising then when we hear testimonies of people who finally came to the end of themselves at rock bottom. In turn, they became completely transformed by Jesus.

You have to believe, understand, and receive this truth: there is nothing you could do to destroy God’s plan for you. Jesus wants nothing more than to open his arms up to you, and welcome you home with merciful unending love and grace.

“…but while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him, and kissed him. The son said to him, ‘ father, I have sinned against heaven and against you, I am no longer worthy to be your son’. But the father said to his servants, ‘quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet…for this son of mine was dead and is alive again, he was lost and is found.”  – Luke 14: 20-24

Jesus eagerly anticipates the day you choose to look up in hope + truth instead of remain face down in the lie that your life is nothing but destitute.

Rock bottom is finally putting an end to wrestling God, and creating a beginning of surrendering to God. What appears to be the end, in return, is an opportunity of a brand new beginning.

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Are you at rock bottom, friend?

I’ll say this.

I find freedom in rock bottom. While you may be in the brunt of your brokenness, you can fully trust that Jesus is going to fight to help you overcome + conquer this.

Your brokenness, it doesn’t define you; it’s an opportunity to powerfully refine you.

To heal you. To free you. To redeem you.

“…I have heard your prayer and seen your tears; I will heal you.” – 2 Kings 20:5

The lies the enemy has tried so hard to use to entangle you, have already been freely broken + defeated by the mighty Savior who died for you.

I don’t know about you, but there’s no other solid ground I’d rather completely fall to my knees to – that of Jesus.

My rock, my fortress, my defense.
“The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.” – Psalm 18:2

It’s on that rock, whether on your knees or on your face…

You will rise. You will stand. It’s only the beginning, not even near the end.

You have a story God will use 100% for HIS glory. Choose to humbly submit. I promise you’ll be blessed by your testament.

“…and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it.” – Matthew 16:18